
and this pretty much sums me up today:
Civilization and its Discontents.” On the one hand, we are animals seeking pleasure, motivated only by “the pleasure principle.” On the other hand, we need the order of civilization to save us from the pain of chaos. But the restrictions of civilization curtail our desires. So the very thing we invented as a means to our happiness becomes our obstacle.
that hits the nail on the head my friends. i want to run away from the world i am a part of. i want to live far away from the constraints of the "normal" people. i want to be on my own land where i can run around in my pyjamas all day if i so wish, running free with my animals and doing what we are meant to do. live off the land. this world of 9-5 mortgage slavery. it is so confusing and to me seems everything far from a "normal" state.