Wonders.
She wonders how long she can,
keep up the facade.
Secretly she longs to escape this life.
A dream is to explore.
Explore the ocean.
And swim with the exotic creatures.
These are on her good days,
when she believes in future and hope.
Mostly, she is tired.
In her dark moments
she envisages wasting away
Would anyone notice?
Would she be missed?
Could it be possible?
To let it all go?
To leave her lifestyle behind?
The lifestyle that is familiar
thus providing the false sense of safety.
She is aware that the options,
Hope and discovery
would serve her soul well.
However..
The desire to let go,
To not have to carry
The burden of flesh
It's all consuming and overwhelming.
