we belong

In my darkest days
you breathe life into me
without you

forever

i would

be existing in a haze

      love and light

      music and song

      together

      we belong

my heart knows true love

you've given me the greatest gift

I'm here

forever

I will

be with you, hand in glove

     tears and sorrow

     know no wrong

     always

     we belong

the pledge

 to have
   and to hold
to keep
   my heart cold
to burn
   break the mould
to bleed
   i am sold
to tears
   love is bold
to lose
   and to fold

normal humans?

I've just been reading about what "normal humans want" because well, i honestly am back to feeling like i don't fit into this life 2012. and i have to stop myself from confusing needs with wants. needs are of course a certain amount of food and water per day and sadly, in this society, enough money to keep a roof over our heads (and those of our loved ones). who but Dr Freud could help me with this dilemma?

and this pretty much sums me up today:
Civilization and its Discontents.” On the one hand, we are animals seeking pleasure, motivated only by “the pleasure principle.” On the other hand, we need the order of civilization to save us from the pain of chaos. But the restrictions of civilization curtail our desires. So the very thing we invented as a means to our happiness becomes our obstacle.

that hits the nail on the head my friends. i want to run away from the world i am a part of. i want to live far away from the constraints of the "normal" people. i want to be on my own land where i can run around in my pyjamas all day if i so wish, running free with my animals and doing what we are meant to do. live off the land. this world of 9-5 mortgage slavery. it is so confusing and to me seems everything far from a "normal" state.

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